It is very common to feel bad after a break-up. Everyone will agree for sure. But why is it really hard and sad? Maybe because you've put so much time and effort. Maybe because you have very different views on commitment? For you, commitment is something to be taken seriously and wholeheartedly and so, you did. You probably gave your hundred percent and sometimes even more. You really want things to work out and you want your partner to have an idea of the amount of happiness you're feeling. Even though it scares you and you made solitude your haven, you've fallen to the life is sweeter when shared trap. So after years of waiting, you finally welcomed someone to share moments with.
Or maybe because you can't believe you entrusted your heart to someone who never really had a thought of taking care of it. You let the feelings grow for someone who didn't appreciate how much courage it caused you to let it. How much convincing you had that this one is different. But he wasn't. He left and you don't even have the slightest idea about what truly happened. That someone really had the guts to give you those sweet lies and play with your heart even when what you only did was be nice.
I guess the painful thing was believing he would be there and won't hurt you yet he has put you to the saddest moment yet of your life where you can only cry and wish for the pain to stop. And the worst part was finding yourself still crying in the middle of the night after months, thinking why'd you deserve such pain when all you did was fall in love to someone who has first showed interest in you and pursued you anyway.
(After finishing this entry, realised it wasn't the best post to read on a new year. Still greeting you anyway... Happy New Year!)
