Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Just when I thought I would write the sweetest poems for you... because of you...

Nagsimula sa matatamis na salita,
Pinakitang lahat ng ito ay tama.
Sa kabila ng pagtataka,
'Di pa rin napigilang maniwala.

Nagtiwala sa sinabi,
Hindi ko alam paano nangyari,
Sa kabila nang iniwasang pagtangi,
Ako pa rin ay iyong nahuli.

Ang sinabi mo'y masaya ka,
Batid kong pareho tayo ng nadarama.
Pinagbigyan at nagtiwala,
Inakalang ito ay iba na.

Ngunit ako pa rin pala ay iiwan,
Ako pa rin pala'y bibigyan ng tanong sa isipan.
Ako pa rin pala ang mangangapa.
Ako pa rin pala ay muling luluha.

Sunday, April 30, 2017


A woman so calm like the ocean
Finds bliss in the littlest of things
Enjoying her solitude
Then you came
You tried to make your way into her world
And when she finally let you pass
There you are
Running away so fast
And now going back
To what she should be
Guarding her heart
And never let again the unsure
Enter her light


Sunday, February 26, 2017

Allied Botanical Corp. Sunflower Maze

We first visited Allied Botanical Corporation in 2010 or 2011. They only had vegetable farm then and I am not sure if the place was really open for the public or they only allowed us to have a tour because one of their staff is a friend of my cousin. When I heard about the Sunflower Farm, I thought they totally transformed it into a flower farm but learned today that it is just an added attraction. It is located in Tayug, Pangasinan. Its registration/entrance fee is PhP100 (PhP80 for persons with disability) and is open from 7:00am to 5:00pm.
The scenery going to Sunflower Farm surely won't bored you.
It was an spontaneous trip the reason why we travelled late. We arrived at 1:30pm. It's freakin' hot and we were greeted by a lot of people. The first thing I did was look for the registration booth. The booth is located inside the Allied's office. It's just across the farm. Once you have the ticket, syempre pwede ka na pumasok. 
You have to get your arm stamped before entering. It's their way of monitoring I think kung sino yung mga registered.
They have a lot of stamp designs :)
What to expect? (1) It is really scorching hot. Given that it's noon time, I still think the heat is insane.  As in masakit sa balat, bes. (2) There were a lot of people since it was already featured in Kapuso Mo, Jessica Soho and we've seen a lot of blogs about it in social media. I honestly wish they would consider limiting the "tourists"(per day) because there were over 200 hundred people during our visit and so they could strictly conduct orientation. It's nice to know at least a lil background so that we would be going home with not just pretty photos but with additional knowledge as well. Two factors (1&2) contributed to why I did not enjoy the place that much. (3) But the flowers were really instagram-worthy. It's so hard to have a photo without photobomber though.

Should have taken a photo of the entrance so you'll have an idea of how many people were there.
(4)For the goers who would bring cars, expect a bit of hassle in going in and out of the place also in looking for a parking space. There are locals naman to guide you. (5)My apologies for I have said in my fb and ig post that there's nothing much to see. We didn't attempt to go to the maze because we can't stand the heat plus we have our mom (PWD) and a baby with us and because we've seen the vegetable farm before. (6) There are food stalls available in the place.
My nephew enjoyed playing with Upo

Is it worth it? I would say, sakto lang. Giving it a 3 out of 5. If you're the type who would travel 3hrs and up to visit the place I suggest, wag na, bes. We stayed for 30 mins lang. But if you would really do anything for your ig and the heat never bothered you anyway, go bes. And if you're like us na 1 hr and 30 mins lang ang travel time, pwede. The best time to visit should have been January to mid February I guess para full bloom ang flowers and malamig lamig ang panahon. (Tip for next year. Hehe)

Things you might want to consider:
1. As much as you want to take your babies, relatives with disabilities, elderly and the like with you, you might want to consider the weather and the situation. Kakayanin ba nila?
2. The clothes and make-up you wear. I saw a lot of people in full make-ups and in long sleeves and jackets. Those might add to your discomfort during your tour. Choose  breathable clothes and wear light make-up instead. You can still be trendy with those. 
3. You might want to apply sunscreen/sunblock :)
3. The flowers will start to wither on March 1. 

Will I come back? If there are new attractions to see, yes!

*Photos were hundred percent no filter. Taken using fujifiln X-A2

Saturday, January 28, 2017

It's Okay Not To Be Okay

Things are not going well?  I am here to say...

Your friend/someone dear to you stopped talking to you for whatever reason it is. IT'S OKAY.
Overused as it may be, but it's true, not everyone is supposed to stay in your life. Some are meant to be just part of our memories. We sometimes meet people because there is something that we need to learn from them. It feels bad for sure but as we age we will be needing "quality friends" not "seasonal friends". We would want someone who would brace us as we face different seasons of our lives. We would want ourselves to be surrounded by people that are good for us.

You have not figured out yet what you wanted to do with your career/life. IT'S OKAY.
You are not the only person who have not figured out yet what to do with his career/life. Don't rush. Rushing might lead you to a wrong direction.
You want to try a lot of things? Go!There's no harm in trying. In time, I know you will find what's best for you. 

You haven't found the one for you. IT'S OKAY.
Love sees no age. Chances are God is still preparing you and so the one that's right for you. 
Get busy with your life. Hustle while you wait. The longer you wait, the more you'll value it when it is given to you.

You failed for so many times. IT'S OKAY.
I find it brave because that means you're still trying. I have heard a lot of success stories that started from failing. When you fail, you're getting a chance to do better the next try. Oftentimes, failing is a mark of a greater opportunity. So keep trying. You'll definitely make it.

And the list goes on...

In life, we don't have a hold on what is in-store for us. More so, the guarantee of always living a good life BUT we can always choose a good fight. Let me tell you this,  life is not always rainbows. Unfortunate things happen for us to value good times. For us to acknowledge that we can't do things alone.  That we need God. Call unto Him and these shall come to pass.

Head's up,lil warrior!  Keep fighting! 

Thursday, December 15, 2016

Open Letter to Mr. Tarp

Dear Mr. Tarp,

I don't know if you were aware but you've been my crush since high school. I honestly don't know why? Siguro it's because of the dating that you have. Nalaman ko pang ang tindi ng humor mo. aaaaaayy!  Not to mention your dancing skills.  Pero may mas malalim pang dahilan ang open letter na ito. Ganito kasi 'yan. I was so happy when you congratulated me on facebook. Finally, you noticed me. Isang tarpaulin lang pala kailangan para mapansin mo ako ng kusa. Since then, we had constant communication. I was beginning to create in my mind something that isn't real. Sabi nga assuming na si 'te! We talked about serious matters but there was never about "US". So technically, umasa lang talaga ang lola mo! We went out once and I must say that's my best memory of you though you kept on checking the time. haha nanotice ko, bes! I was so nervous during that time. I didn't want to fail you. I didn't want to give you a wrong impression. Sadly, sometimes the more we stress over something that's when negative things are more likely to happen. We gradually lose communication. Though I kinda know the reason I still would like to ask you. Bakit? Pero syempre takot ako. We started wrong. The motive was misinterpreted.

Knowing you're in a relationship caused a slight pinch in my heart. Ikaw naman kasi paasa ka rin ng one-fourth. But I learned my lesson. I know na what to do and expect next time. Actually, that thought me not to expect unless it is clearly expressed. We often hear the saying "action speaks louder than words" but  there are some instances that you have to validate actions through words. You need to hear what it really means.

Thank you pa din I was given the chance to meet and get to know you behind the social media. Try kita patawarin. Jooooke! Syempre naman, kasalanan ko rin naman. 

So paano, hanggang dito na lang. :)


Tuesday, October 25, 2016

Securing the Future

Many of us fail to save for the future. Oftentimes, we live in the moment and we forget to prepare for what tomorrow entails.

Listen guys. Listen. Totoong kaganapan ito. (on a side note, everything I write here are true of me) 

I've been working for 5 years and believe it or not, I have not save anything yet (AND I AM NOT PROUD OF IT). I was once this lady who has an exact allowance-just enough pamasahe and konting pangkain. Yet I used to save my baon for other necessary things. Opted to use my savings for school stuffs rather than asking my mom for extra money to cover school expenses. I also use them to buy clothes or what it is that I need. So my life as a schooler is technically not the pasarap-buhay type. But I am not complaining. I know I need to do that because what we have is sapat lang  and I love helping my mom. Plus, it was my choice. 

Fast forward to the day I started working and finally earning money. I got overwhelmed because I can now buy what I want. (But that's just on top of my household responsibility of course. What we're talking here are extra money.) I buy clothes, shoes and stuff I've been longing for. I know. I know. There's nothing wrong with that. But I become giddy that I become more concerned of wanting to get the things I can't have before. It's okay if it's paminsan-minsan, but if it becomes palagi and you don't need it, you gotta stop. It should serve as a reward. You don't always get a reward, right? If it becomes frequent and out of control. DEAR, THAT'S NOT GONNA BRING YOU GOOD. THAT'S SPLURGING. Take it from me. 

I was so thankful I got sick. Not actually thankful I got sick but the realization which I hope I was hit earlier. It taught me the lesson I refuse to see since then. I need to save for my future. I need it that when something unforeseen event happened, I am prepared. True enough- sometimes you know what to do, but you tend to wait for the situation to punch you in the face before you could actually practice it. Haaaay, buhay stubborn. 

So here I am now, making it right this time. Sharing you some tips that are working for me because I care. 

1. Write your 'fixed expenses'. This includes bills, groceries and other things you need to settle. 

2. Separate your 'fixed expenses',  the money you're gonna save, and what you're gonna budget for your daily NEEDS

3. Monitor your daily expenses. Write 'em down. Para may babalikan ka at pag-aaralan kung saan ka sumobra at nagkulang, bes.
Ayan, yang Jollibee ang magandang halimba ng unnecessary. HAHA Pero sabi ko naman magsave, 'di i-deprive ang sarili  (Nailusot ko b?? HAHA)
4.  Keep savings as savings. And open [another] bank account for your S.A.V.I.N.G.S which I'm gonna do on December. 


Don't say I didn't warn yah! :-) 

Joyce Lauren

Sunday, September 4, 2016

Late Night Feels x The Art of Music

One of the reasons why I resist staying late at night is it's when I get so much "feels". Feels about my life's current state, future endeavors, my under-construction-love-story, great time with friends and "sana" moments with my family as I listen to songs that hit me bone-deep. I usually listen to the ones with senseful lyrics but with great accompaniment of course.
“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.” 
― Aldous HuxleyMusic at Night and Other Essays
Music gives me magic in a form of contemplation. While I plunge into the beauty of each songs, it allows me to  move in a world my imagination has created through melodies.I see future. I get to feel emotions that reality won't allow me. It uncovers my eyes to possibilities.
 “Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” ― Maya Angelou 
The beauty of music is that it explains what's deep down in you. And unconsciously, it's an outlet to what you are feeling. The reason why smiling and crying to a beautiful song gives you the same feeling... The same satisfaction. Music speaks to your soul and moves to your every being. Also the reason why I believe you can learn about a person through the songs he/she is listening to.
 “People haven't always been there for me but music always has.” 
― Taylor Swift
Leaving you with some of the songs I listen to.
1. Up & Up by Coldplay
2. Fix You by Coldplay
3. The Scientist by Coldplay
4. The  Last Time by Taylor Swift
5. Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift
6. Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift
7. Night Changes by One Direction
8. History by One Direction
9. Perfect by One Direction
10. More Than This by One Direction
11. Youth by Troye Siva
12. Touch The Sky by Hillson
13. Fight Song by Rachel Platten
14. Better Place by Rachel Platten
15. When She Cries by Restless Heart
16. Over and Over Again by Nathan Sykes
17. Closer by Chainsmokers
18. One Call Away by Charlie Puth
19. We Don't Talk Anymore by Charlie Puth
20. One Day by Matisyahu ft. Akon
21. Geronimo by Sheppard
22. Pompeii by Bastille
23. Kill 'em with Kindness by Selena Gomez
24. I Love You Always and Forever by Donna Lewis
25. Whole Wide World by Mindy Gledhill
26. All About Your Heart by Mindy Gledhill
27. All the Pennies by Mindy Gledhill
28. Say Something by A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera
29. Pusong Ligaw by Jericho Rosales
30. Lakambini by Ebe Dancel

I'll change it to a playlist as soon as I learn how to make it, :-)


Friday, April 15, 2016

Dead Time

I am assuming you know that I am in our office as I am writing this post. *winks*
Do you experience having this hour of the day when you were so productive then suddenly boom! you just don't wanna move. Exactly what's happening to me at this point in time. I am writing to keep my mind awake and processing. You know my love for writing (though writing doesn't love me back) But if you know me well, you would know that I write enthusiastically the most when I am feeling happy, sad, excited, angry... yeah! quite during extreme emotions!

Nothing so important to write.
The feeling is hmm never mind.
You may call it a pastime,
but this keeps me in my right mind.

Today, the drive is lost.
Yet I am writing this post.
'Cause this is what this little heart of mine propose.
That's why it's not that hard to compose

It's for you to decide whether what emotion controls me right now.

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

UPGRADING 2016: Lauren Version 2.0

Few more days before New Year, I decided to make a list of what I should improve in the coming year based on my experiences for the past years. Without further ado, here are the things I'd build on for 2016. Except for number 1, the following are in no particular order:

1. Always remind myself that God is in control and continue to let God takeover with my life. Trust in His timing, (This one isn't really something I need to improve but something to keep doing)
2. Be reminded that a no means New/Next Opportunity.
3. Be more patient and understanding.
4. Be delighted about life. Count more blessings; laugh at negativity. SMILE. SMILE. SMILE.(Remember number 2 & 3)
5. Keep in touch with my loved ones (including friends)
6. Work on balancing work and personal life. Don't be too attached with work. (To fulfill number 5)
7. Create more memories. Go out. Explore the world. Appreciate God's creations. (Invest in what would refresh my mind and in what would renew me)
8. 2016 is my year of SAVING! (Number 7 passes)
9. Build a better future even if it means going out of my comfort zone. (Again, number 7 is applicable)
10. Be kind.
11. Be a blessing to others.
12. Be more lady-like.
13. Always be grateful.
14. Rant less. (Or rant when necessary?)
15. Be wiser.
16. Talk less. Listen more.
17. Continue to learn.
18. Read often.
19. Work on God's gift to me. Enhance my talents. (Discover hidden talents??)
20. Be fit and healthy. (To be able to do more of number 7 and live longer, ofc)

That's it! I might add when I found out something that needs improvement. Help me with these! Pray for me. Advance Happy New Year, guys!!!!

Friday, December 25, 2015

What CHRISTmas 2015 Means to Me

Yes, I haven't updated my blog for a really long time; (1) I've been super busy with work, (2) I don't know how to get back to writing, and (3) I don't know whether I have something interesting to share with you guys.

 Again, yes, today is Christmas day. I don't know but Christmas celebrations now are different from the celebrations I grew up with. We used to be so excited about Christmas.Our family would stay up 'til dawn just chatting, singing and laughing. Although we still did sort of the things I mentioned last night. There's still this feel that there's lacking. Maybe because almost half of my relatives were away from our place. We used to celebrate Christmas altogether, that's how Christmas celebration our lolo imparted us. I guess it's just the longing? The longing for people you love and used to share all this 'Christmassy' thingy.

BUT there are brighter sides that's why this feeling didn't takeover that much. I was still able to share the blessings I received this year. I was still touched by the unexpected Christmas messages from friends, workmates and I have to say this, from some unexpected people. Plus, I gave my room the reward called general cleaning. Of course, more importantly, I can't be sad on the day my Savior was born and the fact that despite all odd circumstances He has sustained me and He has proved to me that there comes blessings after adversities. I am that confident with my faith in God. I know He will finish what He has begun in my life. So yeah, I hope everyone thinks the same way 'cause life is more pleasing when you acknowledge that there's a God you can entrust every aspect of your life. And I hope I did inspire you with this entry 'cause if yes, it'll be a great Christmas gift.

Here's to remind you that HE IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON. We are celebrating the birth of Christ. Merry Christmas! God bless us all!