Sunday, August 3, 2014

Wishing to be back...

I know it has been too long since the last time I made an update here. Forgive my busy schedule along with a lazy ass. As you all know, as per my previous blog, I am okay now. I have gone through the pain. It is so amazing how you can be so excited about life after you have felt despair. After all, I learned I have a lot of things to be thankful for; waking up, having real friends and my supportive family, experiencing the true meaning of life and loosing myself over God's love are just few. I used to be so negative about life. Really true that you need to choose who you surround yourself with. Since I have happy spirits around me, I learned to see the good in every bad. Felt enlightened. Really have bunch of good news to tell you about. Hoping that this post will be the start of my blogger-come-back.
 God bless us all.
 Embrace goodness.
 Affirm love.
 Spread positivity.

Sunday, June 15, 2014


For the past years, I have been aware that a father is the one who watches over you, serves as your pillar, prays for/with you, hugs you on your down moments, witness every milestone in your life, wants the best for you, works hard for you and THE ONE WHO STAYS because they love you. You may have the one you call "best/great dad", thus, I was favorably blessed by God with countless gentlemen in my life who exemplify everything I have mentioned above. BLOOD DOES NOT DETERMINE FATHERHOOD; RESPONSIBILITY, AVAILABILITY AND DIGNITY DO.

Happy Father's Day to the gentlemen who made me feel loved for years! I love you from the bottom of my heart. You all made meaning to who I am right now. 

Monday, June 2, 2014

For once, I am going to say this,
"I had you at your worst, she had you at your best."
Ain't saying this with regrets,
This is just a regress. 
Hey, I still wish you the best.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Note To The ‘Has Been’

Making a note for you is something that is not new to me. Thus, with this one, contents do. From the moment  we parted our ways, I have seen a lot of changes. I can see now that you are happy(Nonetheless, by God's grace, I am happy, too.). Right there, I knew I made the right decision. I knew this is what you/I/we need. Well, it has been my reason since that day, to see you in a right disposition. I want you to find yourself and look for your new inspiration/motivation. I just hope it continues til I see a successful you. I am thankful for the memories. And I’m grateful for the pains. After all, I have learned that there is no such thing as bad experiences only lessons learned. Wishing you all the best. I know at this point in time, I am writing with a happy heart.

Sincerely & truly,
The woman who cared/cares for you

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Ode to Mister Life-Saver/Heart-Fixer

    I always tell you how you make my heart smile. I know once you've learned about it, you will say "weh?" na naman.
   Funny how I depressingly felt ditched for the past months e you were around. You're providing me a different perspective, helping me see a brighter side. Embarrassing! I'm too concerned with my filthy unhealthy feelings. I'M SO GLAD YOU NEVER GAVE UP.
   Stubborn as you love to describe me, yet you know that I honor your words and your opinion matters. I keep on wondering how you maximize the remaining pinch of confidence I have for myself.  Hmm, I must say YOU ARE THE BEST CONFIDENCE BOOSTER! Having tested your patience for 1... 2... 3... 4... ohh! countless times, it's proven. It is the longest! :)
   How on earth you maintain not to think of sinful thoughts about other people? I know some instances which you may be excused of creating one yet you chose to ignore and be nice anyway. Biggest heart of all! Out of your overly productive crazy days, a big space is always always intended for me. Your efforts scream P-R-I-O-R-I-TY! hihi Where will I find another person having great mind as you who tirelessly say I am also good. That I am smart and talented, too. That I can be anything I dream to be.
   Sigh :) I will never run out of pleasant words to describe you. You are truly an amazing person. I'm blessed it is me you've given the privilege to experience your contagious acts of generosity. You deserve all the love, happiness and respect! You've given me more that I deserve and I couldn't thank you enough for that.

Ending it with this:

Sincerely, thank you :")

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

To you who might be in pain,



“Our own struggles and our own sorrows are the things that teach us the most about this world, and it is significant when we can actually manage to make the choice to keep going in spite of whatever life hands to us. It is the little rips and tears and cuts and scrapes that pain inflicts upon us that form who we are. The scars we earned tell our stories..." -The Thing That Bonds Us Most Is Pain, Ella Ceron

What you’re experiencing won’t last. You can get through it. Life has more to offer. Smile and start anew. God bless you! J


JLLLavapie <3

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Moving forward...

I can safely say now that I am more mature. I am braver and I'm stronger than I thought. Learned to embrace what life has to offer whether it is good or bad. I am ready to take the risk as life taught me countless times, for every unsuccessful attempt comes a fruit of experience. Struggles are there bec. God's preparing me for something great. 

I'll live life to the fullest. Will take opportunities. Will look at the brighter side. Will dance in the rain. Will never be afraid to love again. I WILL LIFT EVERYTHING UP TO MY LORD AND SAVIOR! If it wasn't for His grace, I won't be here, free and moving. So I'll let His will be done.

P.S It's for my FB's 'about me' section.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Isang Malaking Check!

“Hindi mo pwedeng mahalin ang isang tao nang hindi mo minamahal ang hilaga, silangan, timog at kanluran ng kanyang paniniwala. Kapag nagmahal ka’y dapat mong tanggapin bawat letra ng kanyang birth certificate. Kasama na doon ang kanyang libag, utot at bad breath. Pero me limit. Pantay-pantay ang ibinibigay na karapatan sa lahat ng tao upang lumigaya, o masaktan, o magpakagago, pero kapag sumara na ang mga pinto, nawasak na ang mga puso, nawala na ang mga kaluluwa at ang bilang ay umabot na sa zero, goodbye na. Pero, the memory of that one great but broken love will still sustain you, tama nga na mas matindi ang mga alaala.”
― Ricky Lee, Para Kay B

Sunday, December 15, 2013


Recently I had experienced life's unexpected turn-of-event, I think it would be great to share the lessons I earned from this situation. A person close to me once said that committing mistake is not bad, for you have gained experience and knowledge but listening to others' experiences gives you wisdom without the need to undergo pain and failure.
I've thought about it many times and come out with the following: It is NOT wrong to love someone truthfully but be sure not to make him the center of your life, please please spare for yourself. This is to prevent you from being devastated. If you have made him your world, how are you going start again if "your world" is gone. It is okay to 'give' but never forget that you also need to know when to 'take back'. Efforts and love should be reciprocated. Submitting and being over-controlled are two different things. Do's and don'ts must be logical. Know your worth and never lose it. Keep in mind that every woman deserves to be respected, be treated like a princess and be taken good care of. Learn to say no. Hold on to your values. As you love him more, remember to love yourself the most. Lastly and importantly, ask for His guidance.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Now, who's depressed?

Feel so pangit.
Feel so kawawa.
Feel so unloved.
Feels like I'm not special.
Feels like no one will like me.
And worst, feels like I'm going to die lonely:(((((((((((((((((((((((((

*in despair
*on the verge of breaking down
*insecure mess

Pls lift my spirit up!