Wednesday, February 26, 2014

To you who might be in pain,



“Our own struggles and our own sorrows are the things that teach us the most about this world, and it is significant when we can actually manage to make the choice to keep going in spite of whatever life hands to us. It is the little rips and tears and cuts and scrapes that pain inflicts upon us that form who we are. The scars we earned tell our stories..." -The Thing That Bonds Us Most Is Pain, Ella Ceron

What you’re experiencing won’t last. You can get through it. Life has more to offer. Smile and start anew. God bless you! J


JLLLavapie <3

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

At this point in time, I badly want to look for another job. A job that will suit my interests. Colleagues who'll accept me and won't impose what they want and what they think is right upon me. #NoToSelfRighteousPeople

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Moving forward...

I can safely say now that I am more mature. I am braver and I'm stronger than I thought. Learned to embrace what life has to offer whether it is good or bad. I am ready to take the risk as life taught me countless times, for every unsuccessful attempt comes a fruit of experience. Struggles are there bec. God's preparing me for something great. 

I'll live life to the fullest. Will take opportunities. Will look at the brighter side. Will dance in the rain. Will never be afraid to love again. I WILL LIFT EVERYTHING UP TO MY LORD AND SAVIOR! If it wasn't for His grace, I won't be here, free and moving. So I'll let His will be done.

P.S It's for my FB's 'about me' section.

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Isang Malaking Check!

“Hindi mo pwedeng mahalin ang isang tao nang hindi mo minamahal ang hilaga, silangan, timog at kanluran ng kanyang paniniwala. Kapag nagmahal ka’y dapat mong tanggapin bawat letra ng kanyang birth certificate. Kasama na doon ang kanyang libag, utot at bad breath. Pero me limit. Pantay-pantay ang ibinibigay na karapatan sa lahat ng tao upang lumigaya, o masaktan, o magpakagago, pero kapag sumara na ang mga pinto, nawasak na ang mga puso, nawala na ang mga kaluluwa at ang bilang ay umabot na sa zero, goodbye na. Pero, the memory of that one great but broken love will still sustain you, tama nga na mas matindi ang mga alaala.”
― Ricky Lee, Para Kay B

Sunday, December 15, 2013


Recently I had experienced life's unexpected turn-of-event, I think it would be great to share the lessons I earned from this situation. A person close to me once said that committing mistake is not bad, for you have gained experience and knowledge but listening to others' experiences gives you wisdom without the need to undergo pain and failure.
I've thought about it many times and come out with the following: It is NOT wrong to love someone truthfully but be sure not to make him the center of your life, please please spare for yourself. This is to prevent you from being devastated. If you have made him your world, how are you going start again if "your world" is gone. It is okay to 'give' but never forget that you also need to know when to 'take back'. Efforts and love should be reciprocated. Submitting and being over-controlled are two different things. Do's and don'ts must be logical. Know your worth and never lose it. Keep in mind that every woman deserves to be respected, be treated like a princess and be taken good care of. Learn to say no. Hold on to your values. As you love him more, remember to love yourself the most. Lastly and importantly, ask for His guidance.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Now, who's depressed?

Feel so pangit.
Feel so kawawa.
Feel so unloved.
Feels like I'm not special.
Feels like no one will like me.
And worst, feels like I'm going to die lonely:(((((((((((((((((((((((((

*in despair
*on the verge of breaking down
*insecure mess

Pls lift my spirit up!

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Dear self,

Thought you've moved on already but why are you still crying? Why dwell in pain and in longing for someone? Why did you let depression ate you? Thought you're strong? Look at yourself, you look pathetic. You badly look older than your age. Always remember this,You are special. Love and take care of yourself. Don’t depend your happiness on others. Please, be back to your normal self. 

Confused-depressed self

Monday, October 28, 2013


Ewe! look what I found guys. Isang nakakahiyang nakaraan.

once in my life I've had this so embarassing jej acct <--- click this


To you not-so-perfect-man,

I hope I get to meet you before my timetabled marrying age comes. I hope you will love me for who I am, what I can do and what I can give. I hope you are the one who would make me believe that I am truly beautiful, that I am worth of your admiration, worth all your efforts. I hope you will love me despite my countless imperfections, incredible mood swings...  regardless of my past. I hope you will love me not only in my best days but also in my worst. I hope you will always patiently understand me. I hope you won’t cage me-you will just let me be. I hope you won’t stop me from doing the things I love and wishing to do. I hope you won’t create barriers with my friends. I hope you will love them too. I hope you will draw me closer to God and to my family. I hope you will  bring out the best in me. I hope you will kiss my worries and fears away. I hope you're someone I can trust. I hope you will be honest with me... Always always honest with me. I hope you will still pursue me even if you already got my answer. I hope you won’t give me the reason to get jealous. Make me feel secure. I hope you will give me the most genuine and sweetest smile. I hope I am your priority. Your only woman. Your only love. The one you cherish. The one you can be proud of.
I hope I get to meet your standards.
Please respect and honor me.
Please  make me feel, I am the lucky one.

P.S I hope I did not gave you a demanding impression. And I will try harder to do the same.

-Weird hopeless-romantic woman (YUCK!)
  Joyce Lauren


Another down moment for me has come. An ordeal I never thought would knock me. The love I astonishingly felt and the imminent of settling down suddenly went to nothing. Crushed! It may look easy for me but it’s harder than you could imagine. The man whom I see myself getting old with, now’s the same person which I have a strange relationship with. It’s really heartbreaking and it's saddening me more when the people around me are making the situation harder. Why people are so insensitive nowadays?  Why is it easy for them to accuse and judge you when they know nothing in the first place? Is it their happiness to take advantage of what you’re going through? So inhumane! I don’t owe anyone an explanation. I would only share to those whom I know have genuine concern towards me. Let me heal. And please if your not gonna say anything helpful might as well shut your mouth up. What I’m going through isn't a joke. Don’t meddle! I'm begging for some respect and understanding. Please let’s not mind others’ businesses. THANKS!