Monday, November 3, 2014

Self-esteem, may worth ka pa ba?

Para sa akin (tama,opinyon ko ito!), hindi mo dapat ibina-bargain ang iyong self-regard. Dahil kung lagi at paulit ulit mong gagawin baka sa bandang huli pati ikaw, sariling worth mo, maconfuse ka na din. Hayaan mo namang maranasan ang mapahalagahan. Yung mayroon mag-iiba ng direksyon o patutunguhan para sa iyo. Aba, bakit mo hahayaang maramdaman o may magparamdam sayo na napakaliit mo? Na ikaw ang laging kailangang mag-adjust?  Samantalang yung mismong Manlilikha mo, kasingtaas mo o mas mataas pa nga ang pagtingin sa 'yo. Minamahal at pinahahalagahan ka ng buong buo. Ngayon, anong karapatan nang ibang taong iparamdam sayo na wala kang halaga? Wala. Walang wala! Tandaan mo, ikaw dapat ang kauna-unahang magtaas ng worth mo. Sigurado ako, 'yan ang magiging basehan ng mga taong gustong pumasok sa buhay mo.

Muli, never compromise your self-worth.

Monday, September 29, 2014

E kaso sana...

Sana mayroong lalaking kahit gaano kahirap, iintidihin, aalagaan at mamahalin ka.
Sana mayroong magbibigay ng todong effort, hindi yung papaasahin ka lang at gagawin kang manghuhula.
Sana mayroong pwedeng magparamdam sayo na walang puwang ang insecurity sa buhay mo.
Sana mayroong nariyan para iappreciate at pahalagahan ka.
Sana mayroong lalaking kayang alisin lahat ng takot mo gamit ang gawa, hindi salita.
Sana may lalaking hindi jejemon pero ikaw lang sapat na.
Higit sa lahat, sana may lalaking magmahal sayo higit pa sa pagmamahal na kaya mong ibigay at inaakala mong deserve mo.

Friday, September 19, 2014

The (Shouldn't be) Frustration

I have assessed many times up to what extent I am willing to do for the person I love and it always ends up to "EVERYTHING-ANYTHING". Yes, I am the type of a lover who thinks more of her loved one's wellness over hers. I am the kind who's the word sacrifice will always be listed as 'frequently used.' When I love, I tend to be the one who gives and adjusts more. If you're asking, "Well, where's the frustration there, darling?". It is always in the question, "Will I find a partner who's also capable of those?", "Don't I deserve to be offered a selfless kind of love?"

BUT as you've noticed, I put "shouldn't be" 'cause I know God's preparing me. He wants me to look within me the yet undiscovered things about myself. He wants me to become complete so when the time comes that He'll push the 'Your-best-untold-love-story-begins-here button' there is no holding back. I know, this time, He wants me to be sure. He wants me to learn about what kind of relationship He thinks I deserve. He wants me to experience the pain so I would not take the risk of hurting myself once again. Those frustrations were gradually turning into a hope. A hope that someday I will no longer have to ask myself because I will experience it. When that happens, surely, those questions will transform into 'The long wait is over. You are undeniably worth it!'

Life is not fair, but God is ALWAYS FAITHFUL. I'll hold on to His promise!

The Person Who Knows You Well

In the midst of this dramatic-cuddling weather, I came into a realization that my mother knows my pain even when (a) it's in the form of silence, (b) I am unconscious I'm carrying it, and (c) regardless of me being overly denial. She does not need to see a tear fall down in my face before she get to know it. SHE FEELS IT EVEN when I don't admit it.

Oftentimes, I thought you were just overreacting. I just knew there is always this deeper sense in what you're saying which comes from the very reliable thing called mom's instinct. I must say, MOTHER IS THE BEST PSYCHOLOGIST.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Out with Old, In with the New

I have decided to change my thinking--thinking about myself, goals and how I mingle with the people around me. If there are things I love about what happened months ago (If you are clueless. Please see my previous posts.Read between the lines, context clues applied) it is giving myself a chance to discover my strengths and weaknesses. Being able to stand for myself and bring back the  respect I know I rightfully deserve.  From that very moment, as my days have changed, I learned to see things wonderfully. Begun to appreciate the shine of a rising sun, breeze of the morning, simple text from a friend, little gfits and thoughts from the people who appreciate me. Wooooow! There is more to life than just focusing your full time to just one person. There is so much more to look forward to. My eyes become wide open to the reality that God's love for me is bigger than me.  How He has blessed me for years which I neglected to put my attention to. Everyday is a gift-be excited about it!

Today, I choose myself! I choose to know more about God's promise! To give importance to the people who value me. This is my life. I will live positively. No rushing, More of embracing! THIS IS MY DECLARATION :)

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Wishing to be back...

I know it has been too long since the last time I made an update here. Forgive my busy schedule along with a lazy ass. As you all know, as per my previous blog, I am okay now. I have gone through the pain. It is so amazing how you can be so excited about life after you have felt despair. After all, I learned I have a lot of things to be thankful for; waking up, having real friends and my supportive family, experiencing the true meaning of life and loosing myself over God's love are just few. I used to be so negative about life. Really true that you need to choose who you surround yourself with. Since I have happy spirits around me, I learned to see the good in every bad. Felt enlightened. Really have bunch of good news to tell you about. Hoping that this post will be the start of my blogger-come-back.
 God bless us all.
 Embrace goodness.
 Affirm love.
 Spread positivity.

Sunday, June 15, 2014


For the past years, I have been aware that a father is the one who watches over you, serves as your pillar, prays for/with you, hugs you on your down moments, witness every milestone in your life, wants the best for you, works hard for you and THE ONE WHO STAYS because they love you. You may have the one you call "best/great dad", thus, I was favorably blessed by God with countless gentlemen in my life who exemplify everything I have mentioned above. BLOOD DOES NOT DETERMINE FATHERHOOD; RESPONSIBILITY, AVAILABILITY AND DIGNITY DO.

Happy Father's Day to the gentlemen who made me feel loved for years! I love you from the bottom of my heart. You all made meaning to who I am right now. 

Monday, June 2, 2014

For once, I am going to say this,
"I had you at your worst, she had you at your best."
Ain't saying this with regrets,
This is just a regress. 
Hey, I still wish you the best.

Friday, May 30, 2014

Note To The ‘Has Been’

Making a note for you is something that is not new to me. Thus, with this one, contents do. From the moment  we parted our ways, I have seen a lot of changes. I can see now that you are happy(Nonetheless, by God's grace, I am happy, too.). Right there, I knew I made the right decision. I knew this is what you/I/we need. Well, it has been my reason since that day, to see you in a right disposition. I want you to find yourself and look for your new inspiration/motivation. I just hope it continues til I see a successful you. I am thankful for the memories. And I’m grateful for the pains. After all, I have learned that there is no such thing as bad experiences only lessons learned. Wishing you all the best. I know at this point in time, I am writing with a happy heart.

Sincerely & truly,
The woman who cared/cares for you

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Ode to Mister Life-Saver/Heart-Fixer

    I always tell you how you make my heart smile. I know once you've learned about it, you will say "weh?" na naman.
   Funny how I depressingly felt ditched for the past months e you were around. You're providing me a different perspective, helping me see a brighter side. Embarrassing! I'm too concerned with my filthy unhealthy feelings. I'M SO GLAD YOU NEVER GAVE UP.
   Stubborn as you love to describe me, yet you know that I honor your words and your opinion matters. I keep on wondering how you maximize the remaining pinch of confidence I have for myself.  Hmm, I must say YOU ARE THE BEST CONFIDENCE BOOSTER! Having tested your patience for 1... 2... 3... 4... ohh! countless times, it's proven. It is the longest! :)
   How on earth you maintain not to think of sinful thoughts about other people? I know some instances which you may be excused of creating one yet you chose to ignore and be nice anyway. Biggest heart of all! Out of your overly productive crazy days, a big space is always always intended for me. Your efforts scream P-R-I-O-R-I-TY! hihi Where will I find another person having great mind as you who tirelessly say I am also good. That I am smart and talented, too. That I can be anything I dream to be.
   Sigh :) I will never run out of pleasant words to describe you. You are truly an amazing person. I'm blessed it is me you've given the privilege to experience your contagious acts of generosity. You deserve all the love, happiness and respect! You've given me more that I deserve and I couldn't thank you enough for that.

Ending it with this:

Sincerely, thank you :")