Tuesday, August 21, 2012

OPEN LETTER CHALLENGE-A letter to the Head of my faith [JESUS CHRIST]

To my forever DAD AND KING,

     The moment I accepted You as my ONE AND ONLY SAVIOR and THE ONE to take and rule over in my life, no problem is unsolvable, no struggle is unsurpassable, no pain  is unbearable, no fear  is  unconquerable, and no dream  is  unreachable. Truly with You, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!
     Without you, I know life would be unimaginably harsher to me; no genuine happiness, no unconditional love, and of course, there will be no assurance of a wonderful life.
      People may think that I'm not a godly person. But I know for sure, I am making You feel how close I am to You. You're the first One to visit my mind whenever I'm worried, I have a problem, I'm happy and burden-free. I guess no one has the right to question my relationship with You because I know in my heart how deeply I trust and surrender my life to You and how I am touched and moved by Your faithfulness and  warmth.
     I don't know how You manage to listen to billions of people who ask for different things. Perhaps, I will never know how. Thus, thank You for the opportunity to have eternal life and be blessed by You. You never turn your back from me though I have failed you for so many times. You're always willing to grant me your forgiveness even I continue to do the same mistakes. You love me unconditionally though most of the time, I'm not worthy.
     I will forever exclaim that nothing compares to the love You have offered me. I will do my best to be Your submissive servant and living bible.

Your daughter and servant,

Tuesday, August 14, 2012

FIFTEEN: Three Years and Five Months

Happy 41st! Thanks for the loving smiles that warms my heart and lightens my spirit. Hopefully, the next 41st that we're going to celebrate is our 41st wedding anniversary(and beyond). God bless us and our relationship! I love you, my now and forever. :">

"What is stopping you is not lack of inspiration, but lack of trust in your abilities."-Mara Wilson

Friday, August 10, 2012

Sensitivity Matters

I have a fear on spiders. This isn't innate in me. It just happened when I was a kid, one afternoon I [imaginably] heard a spider’s cry and thought the reason was I accidentally sat on it, but I immediately noticed that it was the drowning rat who seeks for help in the pail. Since that day, I dreamt of the giant spiders hunting me. And also since then I have had the so called arachnophobia. (As a psych graduate I have knowledge on how to treat phobias but I don't want to apply it in myself 'cause I know in my heart that I can't handle the fear. This fear might cause [ME] cardiac arrest or mental illness.)

I hate it when people use this weakness as the contrivance to their bully-ness. I loathe how they can still laugh even if they see me crying and chilling because of severe apprehension. In every conversation were a plan of throwing a spider on me where being brought up, whether it’s a joke or not,  my temper changes, uneasiness visits me and paranoia haunts me. And I am not exaggerating.
Simple things you thought is funny can bring discomfort to someone. Respect others despite their strange weaknesses and offer them deep understanding. You’ll never know how much it can affect her behavior/psychologically.
Never forget the golden rule: "Do not do to others what you don’t want others do unto you.”
It was never wrong to think first before you act especially if the outcome is perceptibly terrible.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Eye Opener

As I was reading Raymund Narag’s article (http://raymundnarag.wordpress.com/2009/12/11/my-honor/), different thoughts haunt me and questions started to form in my head- What kind of authorities we have for making an innocent man suffer and fracture its reputation by accusing him to the crime that he didn’t do anyway? How come those who were appointed to protect the people suddenly took someone’s good future? I’m not really sure how misleading rule over that particular case and if it’s right to think that authorities practice injustices over justness.  What I have read today is a clear evidence that power separates people from acquiring integrity.  And that this kind of incident tolerates and pushes people to continuously perform crimes since persecution and acquittal are in the hands of the dominant and influential ones. [This is exactly why I’m into equity and despises those who are unfair].
Conversely, I awe Mr. Narag for maintaining his optimistic thoughts and holding into his faith in God.  And for doing what’s right even what he has gone through is a product of wickedness and narcissism , also for keeping his dreams and adding it with a vision to help and give others inspiration.  For letting people see and realize that nothing’s too late if what you only want is for everyone’s wellness.
I pray that this won’t happen again because no one deserves this more than those who are guilty, that authorities won’t commit the same mistake again and provide people just treatment. And lastly, I pray to God that more Raymund Narag would come out for a better human race.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

OPEN LETTER CHALLENGE-A letter of my choice

In commemoration to my grandfather who passed away last July 28, 2010.

"A  grandfather is someone with silver in his hair and gold in his heart. -Unknown"

Dearest great man/awesome grandpa,

    It's been 2 years since you come home to our Dad/King. So how was it? Are you enjoying their company? I know you do. If you're about to ask "How about us?" Well, things are quiet okay now but there are still times that pains are unbearable and tears are unstoppable.
   You often visit my thoughts and I can't help but smile. :) You are ONE of the reasonS why I didn't consider rebelliousness as the compensatory effect of having an absent biological father. Aside from your role as our grandfather, you've also taken the role of being our father. You laughed with us, got mad with us, and the most easy thing you do, SPOILED us. Being a certified spoiler is something that mostly grandparents are capable of and you have proven me that. From the things I need in school to the things I only want, you've turned them into reality; You've never shown us tightfistedness. You have been the Central Luzon State University's troubleshooter and I should know better why. Of all the times my playmates had tripped on me, my kuya and cousins made fun of me and mama's wrath had exploded, you're my  vindicator and protector. In my Alma mater, I was tagged as "Apo ni Ka Piling" which caused me immense pressure but I've got over it and soon realized it was a privilege.
   I remember, how you've made me cry couple of times when I was young due to extreme fright. You loved to scare us with your ghost stories and with your radio-in-its-maximum-volume's horror tales you wanted us to hear before going to sleep. However, those tears are nothing compared to the shed tears when God decided to took you in His arms again. It's certainly the saddest unplanned reunion we have had.
  You've received a lot of awards and recognitions but I guess, the greatest can't be held in your hand. They're held in your heart and mind.; they are the memories you've given us, the wisdom you've shared and the kind of family relationship you've imparted us. For all the spectacular contributions you have in our lives and by deciding to surrender your life to our ONE AND ONLY GOD, you were granted the most precious gift, eternal life and that simple fact reduces our bereavement.

Happy 2nd Birthday to the new you and happy 2nd anniversary of rejoicing with God!
We all love you and your memories will forever remain.

A little teary-eyed while smilin' above,