Life During Quarantine

14 April 2020- Exactly 30 days since the Philippine government has imposed the Enhanced Community Quarantine (ECQ) due to the CoViD-19 pandemic. The government aims to flatten the curve or simply eliminate the chances of the virus from transmitting to other people. Today finally starts the mass testing in our country. Mass testing means doing swab test to those who (1)exhibit influenza-like symptoms and have travelled to the place where there are confirmed cases or have had exposure to a CoViD-19 positive, (2)health workers who have been in contact with a person who tested positive, and (3) those high risk people-people who have underlying conditions, pregnant women, and senior citizens. It is vital in containing the virus as it is the tool used to identify the infected so they can be isolated and be treated.

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        To date, there have been  1,930,780 confirmed cases worldwide to which 5,223 are from the Philippines. Number of  deaths has reached 120,863 worldwide and the Philippines with 335. And of course there have been recorded recoveries to wit: 464,398 worldwide and 295 from the Philippines. And we are all claiming (in Jesus'name) for higher stats of recoveries and no additional confirmed cases in the coming days.
         But nope, the purpose of this blog is not to reiterate the information you surely see everywhere. This is actually my way of tracking how my quarantine days are like/have been. I am one of those who have been blessed to not lose my job and have the benefit of working from home. It is indeed a blessing to be with the family in this time of crisis. However, work-from-home is not as easy as I thought it would be. Lots of coordination has to be made and being away from your co-workers means doubling the hard of communicating. Grateful our office isn't as demanding as other offices  days after the ECQ had been imposed and I can really feel that they still prioritize the health of their manpower. We can work at our own pace unless a report or data is urgently needed.
        A month after and my concerns have changed from fear of contracting the virus or any of the people dear to me to the anxiety of not knowing when this will end and if we will be able to be back to "normal"soon. I miss seeing my friends. I miss going out since I haven't been outside our home since the quarantine has been declared. I miss our normal lives. Guess, I have to look at the brighter side for now that I am still blessed to be missing those things just for a span of time and not taken the chance to experience those again.
       Hope we can all pray for the the people who are holding the fort for us:doctors, nurses, other medical practitioners/experts, farmers, fisher folks, utility workers, soldiers, policemen, food delivery/supply drivers, security guards and  leaders. Let's pray for their protection and good health. Let us also pray for the healing of those infected. Pray for our leaders, for their plans, actions, and sound decisions. Pray for the poor, that they may find help. Pray for one another, to get through the anxiety this is causing us. Let's pray for a CoViD-19 free world and remain hopeful.

Securing the Future

Many of us fail to save for the future. Oftentimes, we live in the moment and we forget to prepare for what tomorrow entails.

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I.AM.GUILTY

Listen guys. Listen. Totoong kaganapan ito. (on a side note, everything I write here are true of me) 

I've been working for 5 years and believe it or not, I have not saved anything yet (AND I AM NOT PROUD OF IT). I was once this lady who has an exact allowance-just enough pamasahe and konting pangkain. Yet I used to save my baon for other necessary things. Opted to use my savings for school stuff rather than asking my mom for extra money to cover school expenses. I also use them to buy clothes or what it is that I need. So my life as a schooler is technically not the pasarap-buhay type. But I am not complaining. I know I need to do that because what we have is sapat lang  and I love helping my mom. Plus, it was my choice. 

Fast forward to the day I started working and finally earning money. I got overwhelmed because I can now buy what I want. (But that's just on top of my household responsibility of course. What we're talking here are extra money.) I buy clothes, shoes and stuff I've been longing for. I know. I know. There's nothing wrong with that. But I become giddy that I become more concerned of wanting to get the things I can't have before. It's okay if it's paminsan-minsan, but if it becomes palagi and you don't need it, you gotta stop. It should serve as a reward. You don't always get a reward, right? If it becomes frequent and out of control. DEAR, THAT'S NOT GONNA BRING YOU GOOD. THAT'S SPLURGING. Take it from me. 

I was so thankful I got sick. Not actually thankful I got sick but the realization which I hope I was hit earlier. It taught me the lesson I refuse to see since then. I need to save for my future. I need it that when something unforeseen event happened, I am prepared. True enough- sometimes you know what to do, but you tend to wait for the situation to punch you in the face before you could actually practice it. Haaaay, buhay stubborn. 

So here I am now, making it right this time. Sharing you some tips that are working for me because I care. 

1. Write your 'fixed expenses'. This includes bills, groceries and other things you need to settle. 

2. Separate your 'fixed expenses',  the money you're gonna save, and what you're gonna budget for your daily NEEDS. 

3. Monitor your daily expenses. Write 'em down. Para may babalikan ka at pag-aaralan kung saan ka sumobra at nagkulang, bes.

Ayan, yang Jollibee ang magandang halimba ng unnecessary. HAHA Pero sabi ko naman magsave, 'di i-deprive ang sarili  (Nailusot ko b?? HAHA)

4.  Keep savings as savings. And open [another] bank account for your S.A.V.I.N.G.S which I'm gonna do on December. 

  

TANDAAN!

Don't say I didn't warn yah! :-) 

love,

Joyce Lauren

Late Night Feels x The Art of Music

One of the reasons why I resist staying late at night is it's when I get so much "feels". Feels about my life's current state, future endeavors, my under-construction-love-story, great time with friends and "sana" moments with my family as I listen to songs that hit me bone-deep. I usually listen to the ones with senseful lyrics but with great accompaniment of course.

“After silence, that which comes nearest to expressing the inexpressible is music.” 
― Aldous Huxley, Music at Night and Other Essays

Music gives me magic in a form of contemplation. While I plunge into the beauty of each songs, it allows me to  move in a world my imagination has created through melodies.I see future. I get to feel emotions that reality won't allow me. It uncovers my eyes to possibilities.

 “Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” ― Maya Angelou 

The beauty of music is that it explains what's deep down in you. And unconsciously, it's an outlet to what you are feeling. The reason why smiling and crying to a beautiful song gives you the same feeling... The same satisfaction. Music speaks to your soul and moves to your every being. Also the reason why I believe you can learn about a person through the songs he/she is listening to.

 “People haven't always been there for me but music always has.” 
― Taylor Swift

Leaving you with some of the songs I listen to.
1. Up & Up by Coldplay
2. Fix You by Coldplay
3. The Scientist by Coldplay
4. The  Last Time by Taylor Swift
5. Wildest Dreams by Taylor Swift
6. Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift
7. Night Changes by One Direction
8. History by One Direction
9. Perfect by One Direction
10. More Than This by One Direction
11. Youth by Troye Siva
12. Touch The Sky by Hillson
13. Fight Song by Rachel Platten
14. Better Place by Rachel Platten
15. When She Cries by Restless Heart
16. Over and Over Again by Nathan Sykes
17. Closer by Chainsmokers
18. One Call Away by Charlie Puth
19. We Don't Talk Anymore by Charlie Puth
20. One Day by Matisyahu ft. Akon
21. Geronimo by Sheppard
22. Pompeii by Bastille
23. Kill 'em with Kindness by Selena Gomez
24. I Love You Always and Forever by Donna Lewis
25. Whole Wide World by Mindy Gledhill
26. All About Your Heart by Mindy Gledhill
27. All the Pennies by Mindy Gledhill
28. Say Something by A Great Big World ft. Christina Aguilera
29. Pusong Ligaw by Jericho Rosales
30. Lakambini by Ebe Dancel

I'll change it to a playlist as soon as I learn how to make it, :-)

---
Lauren

Dead Time

I am assuming you know that I am in our office as I am writing this post. *winks*
Do you experience having this hour of the day when you were so productive then suddenly boom! you just don't wanna move. Exactly what's happening to me at this point in time. I am writing to keep my mind awake and processing. You know my love for writing (though writing doesn't love me back) But if you know me well, you would know that I write enthusiastically the most when I am feeling happy, sad, excited, angry... yeah! quite during extreme emotions!

Nothing so important to write.
The feeling is hmm never mind.
You may call it a pastime,
but this keeps me in my right mind.

Today, the drive is lost.
Yet I am writing this post.
'Cause this is what this little heart of mine propose.
That's why it's not that hard to compose

It's for you to decide whether what emotion controls me right now.

UPGRADING 2016: Lauren Version 2.0

Few more days before New Year, I decided to make a list of what I should improve in the coming year based on my experiences for the past years. Without further ado, here are the things I'd build on for 2016. Except for number 1, the following are in no particular order:

1. Always remind myself that God is in control and continue to let God takeover with my life. Trust in His timing, (This one isn't really something I need to improve but something to keep doing)
2. Be reminded that a no means New/Next Opportunity.
3. Be more patient and understanding.
4. Be delighted about life. Count more blessings; laugh at negativity. SMILE. SMILE. SMILE.(Remember number 2 & 3)
5. Keep in touch with my loved ones (including friends)
6. Work on balancing work and personal life. Don't be too attached with work. (To fulfill number 5)
7. Create more memories. Go out. Explore the world. Appreciate God's creations. (Invest in what would refresh my mind and in what would renew me)
8. 2016 is my year of SAVING! (Number 7 passes)
9. Build a better future even if it means going out of my comfort zone. (Again, number 7 is applicable)
10. Be kind.
11. Be a blessing to others.
12. Be more lady-like.
13. Always be grateful.
14. Rant less. (Or rant when necessary?)
15. Be wiser.
16. Talk less. Listen more.
17. Continue to learn.
18. Read often.
19. Work on God's gift to me. Enhance my talents. (Discover hidden talents??)
20. Be fit and healthy. (To be able to do more of number 7 and live longer, ofc)

That's it! I might add when I found out something that needs improvement. Help me with these! Pray for me. Advance Happy New Year, guys!!!!

First of 2015

Good day, everyone! I arrived early at work today (Well actually, since the beginning of the year). I am quite confused... Confused in what should I do with my career. Looking for another job visits my thoughts. But I ain't have the courage to take that step. oh well, just help me pray regarding this matter.

About my plans for 2015, I want to go places. I want to see more of God's creation. I also wanna be fit. I wanna get back to my workout routines; bike more often and push myself to jog again aside from doing some stomach exercises. With regards to love life(uuuy! I know may interested dito. Chos!), if I will be given a partner this year, I'd be glad. If not, I am still happy. I always pray to God naman na I want Him to prepare me first. If He thinks I am now ready, then I will take care of it.  2015 is the year of hope, love, adventure and positivity for me! This year is going to be far  better than the last! Let's change our thinking. No excuses for 2015! :)

Self-esteem, may worth ka pa ba?

Para sa akin (tama,opinyon ko ito!), hindi mo dapat ibina-bargain ang iyong self-regard. Dahil kung lagi at paulit ulit mong gagawin baka sa bandang huli pati ikaw, sariling worth mo, maconfuse ka na din. Hayaan mo namang maranasan ang mapahalagahan. Yung mayroon mag-iiba ng direksyon o patutunguhan para sa iyo. Aba, bakit mo hahayaang maramdaman o may magparamdam sayo na napakaliit mo? Na ikaw ang laging kailangang mag-adjust?  Samantalang yung mismong Manlilikha mo, kasingtaas mo o mas mataas pa nga ang pagtingin sa 'yo. Minamahal at pinahahalagahan ka ng buong buo. Ngayon, anong karapatan nang ibang taong iparamdam sayo na wala kang halaga? Wala. Walang wala! Tandaan mo, ikaw dapat ang kauna-unahang magtaas ng worth mo. Sigurado ako, 'yan ang magiging basehan ng mga taong gustong pumasok sa buhay mo.

Muli, never compromise your self-worth.

The Person Who Knows You Well

In the midst of this dramatic-cuddling weather, I came into a realization that my mother knows my pain even when (a) it's in the form of silence, (b) I am unconscious I'm carrying it, and (c) regardless of me being overly denial. She does not need to see a tear fall down in my face before she get to know it. SHE FEELS IT EVEN when I don't admit it.

Oftentimes, I thought you were just overreacting. I just knew there is always this deeper sense in what you're saying which comes from the very reliable thing called mom's instinct. I must say, MOTHER IS THE BEST PSYCHOLOGIST.

Out with Old, In with the New

I have decided to change my thinking--thinking about myself, goals and how I mingle with the people around me. If there are things I love about what happened months ago it is giving myself a chance to discover my strengths and weaknesses. Being able to stand for myself and bring back the  respect I know I rightfully deserve.  From that very moment, as my days have changed, I learned to see things wonderfully. Begun to appreciate the shine of a rising sun, breeze of the morning, simple text from a friend, little gfits and thoughts from the people who appreciate me. Wooooow! There is more to life than just focusing your full time to just one person. There is so much more to look forward to. My eyes become wide open to the reality that God's love for me is bigger than me.  How He has blessed me for years which I neglected to put my attention to. Everyday is a gift-be excited about it!

Today, I choose myself! I choose to know more about God's promise! To give importance to the people who value me. This is my life. I will live positively. No rushing, More of embracing! THIS IS MY DECLARATION :)

GENTLEMEN'S DAY

For the past years, I have been aware that a father is the one who watches over you, serves as your pillar, prays for/with you, hugs you on your down moments, witness every milestone in your life, wants the best for you, works hard for you and THE ONE WHO STAYS because they love you. You may have the one you call "best/great dad", thus, I was favorably blessed by God with countless gentlemen in my life who exemplify everything I have mentioned above. BLOOD DOES NOT DETERMINE FATHERHOOD; RESPONSIBILITY, AVAILABILITY AND DIGNITY DO.

Happy Father's Day to the gentlemen who made me feel loved for years! I love you from the bottom of my heart. You all made meaning to who I am right now. 

Ode to Mister Life-Saver/Heart-Fixer

    I always tell you how you make my heart smile. I know once you've learned about it, you will say "weh?" na naman.
   Funny how I depressingly felt ditched for the past months e you were around. You're providing me a different perspective, helping me see a brighter side. Embarrassing! I'm too concerned with my filthy unhealthy feelings. I'M SO GLAD YOU NEVER GAVE UP.
   Stubborn as you love to describe me, yet you know that I honor your words and your opinion matters. I keep on wondering how you maximize the remaining pinch of confidence I have for myself.  Hmm, I must say YOU ARE THE BEST CONFIDENCE BOOSTER! Having tested your patience for 1... 2... 3... 4... ohh! countless times, it's proven. It is the longest! :)
   How on earth you maintain not to think of sinful thoughts about other people? I know some instances which you may be excused of creating one yet you chose to ignore and be nice anyway. Biggest heart of all! Out of your overly productive crazy days, a big space is always always intended for me. Your efforts scream P-R-I-O-R-I-TY! hihi Where will I find another person having great mind as you who tirelessly say I am also good. That I am smart and talented, too. That I can be anything I dream to be.
   Sigh :) I will never run out of pleasant words to describe you. You are truly an amazing person. I'm blessed it is me you've given the privilege to experience your contagious acts of generosity. You deserve all the love, happiness and respect! You've given me more that I deserve and I couldn't thank you enough for that.

Ending it with this:

Sincerely, thank you :")

The Mommah and Honey I Want To Be...

First on the list is more likely predictable. Hello! I’ll be the hottest mommah, a wifey who maintains her figure (I’m crossing my fingers). Probably a working mom but doesn't forget her most important job-to take care of her family and be there constantly. Let us say a woman who commits her full time and attention even if it means waking at 4:30am to prepare breakfast, coming home early for dinner, and staying up late at night but surely fulfilled her duties as a mom and wife.

More likely, a mom/wife whom they can confide everything with. Yes, I’ll be you number  1 best friend (Whether you like it or you like it. YES! NO CHOICE! *chuckles*) I’ll be the coolest and most understanding woman in your lives but hey hon/babies, mommah won’t tolerate your inexcusable deeds. I should take responsibility in what you should become(Yes! You are included, Daddy!). We will be a God-centered family.

I will make sure that there is something you will happily look back in every special occasions. We will discover things together. We will create and share candid happy moments. I will be the best chef in town. BUT (READ CAREFULLY) eating together especially during dinner is the condition I wouldn't want to be taken for granted. It’ll be our bonding and sharing time.

I must say, I can be your dance partner, videoke buddy, movie date or simply your stage mother and your proud better half. I’ll be the source of your happiness. The person who brings glow in your heart. A woman who gives you inspiration. And someone whose bad vibes counterpart; your forever brighter side. I will love you on your best days and never less on your worsts.

Through the help of God, we will stay bonded and guided. I will love you equally and wholeheartedly.

The hardworking woman of your lives,

JOYCE LAUREN 

I Can Do More!

     Looking back and comparing all the things happened and happening to me. Finally, I’m seeing a big difference. I was once a girl who’s afraid to go to a private school due to my poor communication skill especially when obliged to speak in English. If I was just brave enough to enroll in that high performing secondary school, more likely I am not a CLSU alumnus. I think I’ll take the risk of  studying in Manila (I even let the chance to take the admission exam at CSB-DLSU and apply for their scholarship program passed). Oh well CLSU contributed  a lot to who I am now and my Alma mater is just as good as other Uni’s in Manila.

     I remember, it was the end of the second semester during my freshman year. It’s the time where you have to think of the course that you’re gonna pursue. From elementary to high school, Education is on my first list. Then thought of taking Development Communication but  knowing my possible classmates made me back off. And also I have gauged that speaking in front of others was tough for me. Yes, I am that self-doubting. And I let others affect me. I ended up taking Psychology and enjoyed it. Doing a lot of researches improved my writing skill. And it’s crazy to deeply understand the way people think, react and behave (in a positive way). Now I’m more open to any kind of situation and people (including ignoring annoying people and being more patient with them). That’s what we do. Deal and listen to people.

     For the past years I let my fears rule over me. I have always been afraid. Afraid to go out alone, address what I feel, live independently, try new things, deal with changes, take the path I want. My lack of confidence and trust in my ability restrained me to the things I love doing. My fears and inferiority complex took away my opportunity to enjoy life.  Now  I want to be brave. Be brave enough to stand for what I believe would benefit me. Taking chances isn't bad. After all there’s no harm in trying. It’s better to tell yourself “better luck next time” than having “what if's?” and  “If only's” in mind.  As for every unsuccessful attempt comes a fruit of experience. 

To whom I owe all that I am and hope to be...

 Mama was my greatest teacher, a teacher of compassion, love and fearlessness. If love is sweet as a flower, then my mother is that sweet flower of love. –Stevie Wonder

To the most wonderful and beautiful mom,

I know you feel sorry because your physical ability is now limited, your orientation is in a bit of confusion and your memory is not as sharp as before. But I’m telling you, you shouldn’t mom:) In my eyes you’re still the best and the coolest mom! The simple fact that you’re with us is something I am thankful for-it’s priceless mom! All the things you’ve done are still appreciated-your immeasurable sacrifices, unconditional love and incomparable care.

Just have a request ma, please be patient. I’m still in the process of pursuing our dreams. In the meantime, I want you to help me. Help me by helping yourself to recover faster-exercise more! Nasan na ung willpower? Yung eagerness? You have to, because you’re my source of strength. I know you’re a fighter mom ‘cause you’ve raised one!

I may have plenty of friends and relatives but I will never have another mom. Thank you for loving me more than my capabilities and beyond my shortcomings. I love you too, supermom! Always have, always will. Happy Mothers Day!

Your gratified daughter, 
Bunso

Bittersweet...

I know what you're thinking, the title and the image doesn't complement each other. Then go, read the post  and find out their connection. ;')

   This post should be something that is really really special and a memorable one. Why? Because this is going to be the last post I'll make here in our division-yes, today's my last day here. 

   Last month, our division chief talked to me. She disclosed a great news. She  told me that I am on the preference list for other position, well, a higher position. They asked me if I wanna give it a try since they're considering me. (My heart jumped when I heard the news, it's indeed a great one right? naging in denial pa nga ako ) I tried and obviously, I was the blessed-chosen one.

   Now it's really official. My heart's melting because I really enjoy being here, being with the most witty yet intellectual people. My 9 months of working with them is really the experience I am thankful for. They are all thoughtful. I had a hard time at first (blame it on the adjustment process) but I must admit when I became accustomed and got comfortable with the work and my workmates, every working day is a fun-filled day. I really enjoy exchanging conversations with them, aside from they can make me laugh, I'm gaining knowledge as well. This is probably my close to dream work setting.

   Today, again, I'm having a hard time but this time, it's because I'm leaving the division and workmates I fell in love with. I'm calming myself since this isn't going to be a goodbye. In fact, I will be just a building away. I'll still be seeing them. I know I shouldn't feel bad, I should be happy (of course, I am), it's the beginning of better things that will come along. I'm truly blessed. I can now exclaim that I am a PHilMech employee. Hard work pays off especially if you're in God's side.

Let me end this post by sharing this:

With God on your side, you cannot possibly lose. He can supernaturally turn your dreams into reality.

A Blessed Lady

I know not all of you know that I came from a broken family. My father  left us almost 7 years ago. That particular event wounded our heart and of course, the scar is still there.

                We’re all affected with what had happened in different ways. My sister took the responsibility to work for us though she should be enjoying her salary in buying what she wants instead of saving it for our bills and needs. My brother quit schooling and never had the thought to go back. My mom once become devastated and almost lost her mind due to finding ways to contact our father.  And I, planted anger in my heart and promised myself that I will make everything to make my father regret what he has done to us.

                Since Filipinos are known for being resilient, we bounced back and somehow get over with what happened though the issue was still sensitive for us. I have lots of questions in my mind which I tried asking my father but none of them were answered. As we stand strong, we learned not to focus on the most difficult crisis a family could face. We witnessed God’s faithfulness and the fulfillment of His promise. He never left us. He blessed us more and made our hearts braver. He sparkled us the hopes we need to face tomorrow. He touched others heart which made the absence of my father became the window for others to show their love and concern for us.

                Now, I already finished college, currently working and still, I don’t have the father whom I can share this milestone. But I am no longer sorry about it because I  am certain that a lot of people are proud of my accomplishments. They believed in me. They took care of me. They loved me-enough reason to stay with us. I lose one man in my life but God blessed me with countless gentlemen in my life. And they're all the reason behind my happiness and gratefulness(aside from my mom).

              Remember, you always have a choice. You can take the path of a wasted soul and be rebellious OR let it inspire you, stand strong, and tell the world nothing can knock you and your dreams down. Life is a matter of perspective.  It’s okay to feel bad but don’t forget to take a step closer to your dreams as you feel God’s glory.

Yes, I’m blessed to be surrounded by loving, caring and thoughtful people.

OPEN LETTER CHALLENGE-A letter to the Head of my faith [JESUS CHRIST]

To my forever DAD AND KING,

     The moment I accepted You as my ONE AND ONLY SAVIOR and THE ONE to take and rule over in my life, no problem is unsolvable, no struggle is unsurpassable, no pain  is unbearable, no fear  is  unconquerable, and no dream  is  unreachable. Truly with You, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!
     Without you, I know life would be unimaginably harsher to me; no genuine happiness, no unconditional love, and of course, there will be no assurance of a wonderful life.
      People may think that I'm not a godly person. But I know for sure, I am making You feel how close I am to You. You're the first One to visit my mind whenever I'm worried, I have a problem, I'm happy and burden-free. I guess no one has the right to question my relationship with You because I know in my heart how deeply I trust and surrender my life to You and how I am touched and moved by Your faithfulness and  warmth.

     I don't know how You manage to listen to billions of people who ask for different things. Perhaps, I will never know how. Thus, thank You for the opportunity to have eternal life and be blessed by You. You never turn your back from me though I have failed you for so many times. You're always willing to grant me your forgiveness even I continue to do the same mistakes. You love me unconditionally though most of the time, I'm not worthy.
     I will forever exclaim that nothing compares to the love You have offered me. I will do my best to be Your submissive servant and living bible.

Your daughter and servant,
Joyce

Sensitivity Matters

I have a fear on spiders. This isn't innate in me. It just happened when I was a kid, one afternoon I [imaginably] heard a spider’s cry and thought the reason was I accidentally sat on it, but I immediately noticed that it was the drowning rat who seeks for help in the pail. Since that day, I dreamt of the giant spiders hunting me. And also since then I have had the so called arachnophobia. (As a psych graduate I have knowledge on how to treat phobias but I don't want to apply it in myself 'cause I know in my heart that I can't handle the fear. This fear might cause [ME] cardiac arrest or mental illness.)

I hate it when people use this weakness as the contrivance to their bully-ness. I loathe how they can still laugh even if they see me crying and chilling because of severe apprehension. In every conversation were a plan of throwing a spider on me where being brought up, whether it’s a joke or not,  my temper changes, uneasiness visits me and paranoia haunts me. And I am not exaggerating.

Simple things you thought is funny can bring discomfort to someone. Respect others despite their strange weaknesses and offer them deep understanding. You’ll never know how much it can affect her behavior/psychologically.

Never forget the golden rule: "Do not do to others what you don’t want others do unto you.”

It was never wrong to think first before you act especially if the outcome is perceptibly terrible.